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Life Threw Me A Punch!

21 Jul

Do You or Have You Felt Like You’re Not Good Enough?

No longer an option

I did and it was hard to admit you were playing a role that you didn’t enjoy playing! That is almost a victim role but if you are like I was, you don’t even know you are doing it. Too often we settle and we buy into what someone else has told us about what is best for us! How do they know so much about us anyway? Or it could be as in my case, a double whammy hit me with not one but two health issues that literally knocked me off my feet.

I have shared the first part of my story, for the first time in an earlier post. And the second half is right here. One of the reasons I am sharing is because we have the power within us to change how we think and feel and consequently how we go about living no matter what the situation. Easy? Hell NO! But so possible and so real. And I hope with all sincerity that this post helps even one person see their own situation in a different light.

Keep an open mind and follow your own dream. After all it is yours and yours alone! Not too often do you see someone else with the identical dream.

Entrepreneurship can feel like an impossible dream. You can become an expert in a lot of things, but self doubt isn’t one where you want to to become an expert. Why? Because everybody and anybody can become a successful entrepreneur. If you’ve ever doubted yourself, STOP. You can wait your entire life for some magical moment or transformation…or you can take the necessary steps to change it right now.

It is called Mindset or a Mind Shift and you have probably seen or read about this as it seems to be all over social media. But the truth is, it really is that simple. You must first CHOOSE to take that first step and re-program your thoughts. You may not have a passion or a purpose, or you may think you need one to be successful but the truth is anyone can be an entrepreneur. You are an entrepreneur if you sell anything to anyone a product a service or ___then you have that in your blood. You just need to know it, simplify it and believe it. Believe in you and success can be yours.

And here is another foot note If you are doing a side hustle or home business in network marketing and you know you have something very special then for heaven’s sake share it because if you don’t someone else is going to!! Just make sure you are doing it for the right reasons. The value you can offer others is far greater than those feelings of self doubt. Think of yourself as being a part of someone’s solution especially if what you have is something you believe in.

The Day My Life Changed…a DOUBLE WHAMMY!

It was supposed to be an exciting time for me. We had finally gotten conclusive evidence and the correct diagnosis for what was happening to me…Livedoid Vasculopathy and the medication was finally starting to work. For the first time in over 2 years I was pain free and no longer needing the Oxy-Codeine and Morphine combos to deal with the pain. I had been given my ‘release papers’ from home nursing care to dress my wounds! It was an exciting time! I was over the moon and ready to start over.

The healing time with the new medication took a few months but by Jan. I was on the mend and it was just a few more months to spring and getting back on track with a new career choice. I loved decorating and had always been given compliments or asked to decorate for friends or family so thought maybe doing something like “Staging Homes for Real estate” or Staging homes to live in would be a fun thing to do.

I started looking for training as I liked the idea of learning the ins and outs and being certified. It just seemed like something I might need. I found an awesome online training that would take me a few months to complete along with some extra training in choosing the best colors for your home. Dressing up your home to sell it or just to live in is such a treat and I was excited as I progressed with each module and exam.

It was late April and I was just finishing up and getting all my pamphlets done and business cards made and an open house arranged to introduce my new and wonderful adventure. I already had two people asking for advice on fixing up certain living areas in their homes. The doorbell rang, and a box was sitting on my doorstep. My pamphlets and business cards were here and they were perfect! I had just gotten off the phone with a ‘student painter’ and we were setting up a meeting to discuss working to help each other getting underway and then it was a crash and burn as I went down so hard I had no idea what was happening.

My excitement turned to sheer PANIC and FEAR! I couldn’t breathe for more than a few steps at a time. This was so strange. I kept telling myself it was something in the air and I would just go and sit and try something different. It continued for a long long time and even just trying to shower or do my hair was a huge effort. I am sure it was the longest hair drying time in history. I had to keep stopping…and then my voice started to change and talking became difficult. I wasn’t getting better, that was for sure. In actual fact I think it was my determination to keep on going that got me as far as I got. I was sure it would go away and was just something silly happening to me.


Gasping for air and struggling to even speak…my words were being forced out of me! It was now a 911 emergency. The ambulance was called as it was serious and I was transported to the Hospital. Nothing scary about that! I couldn’t talk, and it was very painful as my chest felt as though it could break apart or explode at any minute. I remember the paramedic saying he thought I may be having a heart attack and asked me to chew this aspirin on the way to the hospital. I was starting to get even more anxious and remember asking for my brother to be called.

Once in the Emergency Dept. and in the trauma unit, it was filled with nurses and Drs. taking my clothes off and trying to find out what was happening. Then they put the stethoscope to my back and the Dr. said I am not getting any breath sounds on the left side. An Xray cart was called and they propped me up and had me attached to oxygen and sure enough, my lung had collapsed with no apparent warning or injury.

They called for the on-call surgeon and it wasn’t long before they were prepping me for what was to be an excruciating experience. A chest tube was being inserted into my chest cavity, thru the rib cage and I could feel every single wiggly movement!! Yes, you had to be awake! I really cannot tell you the time frame here, but it was a few hours later and more x-rays and then they moved me to a different area of emergency to wait for a room as I needed to be admitted to the hospital for a few days.

It was during this time that a few things were starting to change again. I was calmed down and breathing with help so that was a relief but my skin was looking odd. I didn’t notice it until after they had taken me to the x-ray dept. and the orderly had me laying down. When they brought me back up to a sitting position, my skin had a mottled effect but just on my arms. It was so odd. I showed the nurse when she came in and then we just dismissed it. Soon after I was admitted and hoping for sleep, if that was even going to be possible.

It was instead to be a very very long night which was going to turn into a very long 8 week journey. Something wasn’t right with the machine I was hooked up to…or so the nurses thought. It was making a lot of racket that was unusual so the head nurse called my Doctor and they sent me back down to see the surgeon again for a ‘ deep stitching’ I believe they called it. It would seem we may have had some air still leaking and so they wanted a precautionary measure taken.

The Moment Time Stood Still

This felt like it was turning into a nightmare! I just wanted to go to sleep and this procedure was almost as difficult to bear as the first one. But I was brave and away we went. Done… and now please can I please have a sleeping pill? I really think I deserve a rest now, was my ‘quip’ to the nurse. She smiled and agreed.

I don’t think even one hour had passed and the nurse had given me my sleeping pill and alarm bells were going off again. Now I had several nurses in my room all trying to figure out why this machine I was attached to was sounding like a kettle over-boiling water at tea time! I am sure there were five nurses in the room when all of a sudden I can’t breathe, I can’t talk and no one is looking up at me!!

Finally, a nurse looks up and I am signaling with my hand in a slashing motion across my neck to tell her I can’t breathe. I had no idea what color I was or that I was swelling beyond recognition but that is what was happening. She almost screamed and the last thing I remembered was them running with me and the gurney, down the hall.

When I woke up, I had no idea where I was or what had happened. I was in the ICU and couldn’t see other than thru tiny slits in my eyes. What had happened to me is called Subcutaneous Emphysema. An air leak under the skin. Very dangerous if not stopped. They didn’t want to show me what I looked like but I was told later by my sister-in-law that the only way she knew it was me was by my hands.

And that is how you get hit with a double whammy BAM***

I remained in the ICU until an air ambulance jet and the paramedic team arrived to transport me to a larger city where a team of thoracic surgeons would oversee me and do more tests. All was looking good, and my lung had finally re-healed ( the lungs can do that) and returned home with an appointment to have my stitches removed on Friday of that week. I hoped beyond hope that I never had to go thru something like this again.

It was Terrifying!!

Alone, in a hospital you have never been in, not knowing why or what actually happened to you and then to have it happen again!! This time it was a loud gasping sound that came out of me early on a Sunday morning. Exactly one week from being released from the hospital. Having already had one experience with similar symptoms I knew it was going to be a 911 call again.
This time they didn’t hesitate. Chest tube inserted immediately after the x-ray and the thoracic team was called for a video conference call and I was transported by air ambulance within 3 days to have surgery to try and repair the lung.

Not one but two major surgeries took place in a short time frame of 10 days. The first surgery attempt had complications and 10 days later it was a more intense surgery with an ICU recovery.

6 weeks later

It has been quite the journey but you know I am still keeping on and not giving up or in. I don’t know when the next time will be but I am on the Drs. radar now. They told me two things:

  1. They say once it happens, and it is spontaneous,your risk of having it happen again are higher than most.

2. It would take close to a year to fully recover as this was very major surgery. ( ICU was my recovery room and then back to the ward for another 7 days)

In that year of recovery the market fell apart for home sales and once again I had to put aside something I had been excited to try. It was a hard pill to swallow but there is a lot of power in how we think so I just had to keep on keeping on!

You can try and fail or fall down due to circumstances but the only time you become a failure is when you stop getting back up. That was not an option for me. It was non-negotiable! I would just keep searching for something that would work for me, or be a really good fit.

I did however ask a few times what the b-geezers was happening? And why it was happening to me, but I didn’t quit. I kept on trying…and failing, I might add, but I tried. Then, unfortunately, it happened again! This time with the right lung.

This was a really hard one which left me totally out of the loop. It was another very long recovery with not one but two long stays in hospital, after one very brief return home only too re-collapse and three chest tubes later, a major infection from the chest tubes, and a shadow of the person I used to be. But I made it and I overcame the challenges that were in front of me. It almost didn’t happen. I seriously, very seriously was doubting that I had any fight left in me.

This was bigger than me but I decided I had to do this. I could not and would not give in. Not yet! No way.

When you are in this type of situation, any normal activity which is often taken for granted when you are healthy doesn’t exist. No, actually let me re-phrase that. It is taken for granted!

Do you think about how you are going to get yourself from point A to point B? Or plan out how you are going to wash your hair…take a shower…step by step? No, of course not. We take breathing for granted until we can’t that is.

I had also remembered reading that you have to make your lungs work in order to heal. Do whatever you can. Don’t stop. Make your lungs do the work. It felt like going to the gym for a full work-out or running a marathon without putting in the practice time or being in shape. They say without pain there is no gain. I was putting that to the test that was for sure!! What a fight getting thru that pain and the fear that surrounds you in case it should happen again. But you just keep on keeping on and keep on pushing through!


If anyone tells you a “story” about recovery without any kind of depression they might be feeling that they cannot share that part of their recovery. It seems there has always been a lot of shame that surrounds depression. That should NOT be the case!! We are only human and we can only endure so much for so long. When ever there is trauma there is a chance of depression or anxiety as you recover.

The best part, which I recently learned, is we have the power within us to change how we cope and how we can overcome any obstacles put in front of us. Is it easy? No way! But it is possible. Anything is if you want to make it happen. I think the biggest thing if I am to be totally honest here is that it takes time and focus and just plain ‘getting it’! When that happens, when you really get it, everything can change for you. I have an earlier post where I shared a bit on mindset and attraction factors. Look for Mindset-the-Choice-is-Yours in my blog roll if you would like to read more.

My Struggle Was Real

I hadn’t shared my story of all that had happened to me or the depression and tears of frustration other than with a few close people, until right now. So, when I was introduced to this new supplement, and I saw what others were saying I got excited.

I take one supplement to help me every day and after being on this now for almost 2 months I can tell you, with all sincerity that I don’t want to miss one day NOT EVER again. I missed a couple of days and the difference was astonishing. I actually didn’t think this could happen so quickly but it did. I went for a slam dunk and not the kind we celebrate! I crashed and then I knew.

No, I certainly am not a nutritionist or health guru nor do I have any training in this area. All I know is that it works for me and I was willing to give it a try. In my mind, if it is 100% natural how could it possibly do any harm? I had nothing to lose and a whole lot of happier days to gain.

AND…I DID, I DID, I DID!! Whoop whoop and a solid 10 thumbs up because I am getting happier and have more focus every day! Nope, not every day is perfect, but it is more than 75% better than I have had in years. SO, YES to getting more of me back.

Overcoming depression can be an ongoing struggle but I can say with all honesty that I feel more like ‘myself’ every day. I feel stronger in my mind than I have in a long time. I stopped taking any medications related to depression. No one said life would be easy and no one can predict health issues. They say if you don’t have your health you can’t possibly have wealth and success or even happiness but I think I am going to prove that statement wrong! Hell, I am determined to prove that it is possible. Anyone care to join me?

And if there is one other thing I have learned in this struggle is to NEVER assume anything about anyone or their circumstances! You do not know their story. Besides, when we assume, we are mostly wrong anyway. Right?

And that’s a wrap for me today…

Merry C.

Questions? Reach out I am only an email away…

A Dose Of Powerful

29 Jun

Sleep makes you smarter and can add years to your life. Power comes in the form of fruits and Veggies everyday. We just can’t always get enough of the right fruits and veggies we need to amp up our overall needs tho’ so what can we do?

Well, here are a couple tips that might enhance or help a little…tart cherry juice. 8 oz in the evening could help you sleep better. Just like snacking on Vitamin C-rich foods like bell peppers and citrus fruits can help with stress. Food can be powerful as well as harmful if we eat to much of those fun mood foods! You know the ones…emotional eating, cravings for…sweets, baked goodies, chips popcorn and more. Where did all the fun food go?

A Dose of Daily

To be perfectly honest it is not easy changing out your eating habits, and especially for a whole family let alone just yourself. And depending on where you live you can’t always get the fresh fruits and produce you need to get your power on. Kiwi and Blueberries are just two that are claimed to be power fruits.

I think that is why taking the right supplement, one that is organic, vegan with all-natural fruits and veggies may be easier for most. If you could get everything you needed daily just taking 3 simple capsules, would you? And not having to worry about how much of what you are getting because it has all been done for you…awesomeness!

Going to the health food store or to the pharmacy that carries supplements gets pretty pricey when you think of how many different ones you need to take to stay nourished, to sleep better and have better energy and focus all day long. Just knowing which ones you really need is big enough for me. Heck the cost adds up pretty quick and if you aren’t seeing results…

Which brings me to another point. How do you know who has the best ones for you? I mean seriously have you seen how many health and wellness company’s there are? I know! It gets tricky so in some cases it comes down to trust.

Trust Your Gut

Trust your instincts. Listen to what others are saying and not just one or two people. Take it all in before you make your decision. Taking supplements is not the same as going to the grocery store for your weekly shopping trip. They can be expensive and they can take more than one try to know or feel any results. If you are like me, less is always more in my eyes.

For me it came down to just that. Trust and seeing and reading what others were sharing. All different people, men and women old and young. Their stories were remarkable. I also liked only having to take 3 little magic pills a day! Yeah, they really are like magic. I fell in love pretty quickly and started to feel more like myself again. And trust me, it had been a long time since I felt like I used to.

All I needed was 3 Simple Organic All Natural Vegan Capsules

Don’t Believe Just Me…Clear Out the Excuses

Seriously, don’t believe just me! I want you to hear from a few others and what they have to say as well. But before I do that, let me tell you that we are a company of 5 products currently with 2 more on the horizon. It is all about Quality, not Quantity. Simply Simpler.

Not new as in a brand new company, but new as in the momentum the team revolution has created. Yes, in the middle of a pandemic people are moving forward and seeing BIG things happening in their lives.

So when you are ready, let me invite you so you can Plug-In and see what a few others have to say on our private Facebook Group. It is an invitation-only page/group and the rules are strict. You cannot be approached to join and you cannot be approached to make any purchases. You can however be the best little “looky-Loo” you can be! So leave me a message in the comments with the words ‘plug in’ and I will get an invite to you asap.

Here is a Sneak Peek at three awesome Journeys:

Would Results Like these Impact Your Life?

3 Capsules Daily with Water…simple

What I really want to focus on here is you and where you are at. How are you feeling? How is your mood? Is the start of a great day, full of rewarding experiences something you would love to see for yourself daily? How about your mood? Could it use a wee boost in these strange times we are going thru and a worldwide pandemic?

Here is a Bit More of Me:
You see, once upon a time, I was that skeptical, frustrated person that might be you reading this right now. Wary of spending more money that I didn’t have to lose, and precious time on yet another product or home business! And damn sure it wasn’t going to be some expensive vitamins or anything like that. Yeah, I had some attitude as I had tried a few and they made me feel pretty awful. But, life has a way of sneaking up on you from behind and giving you that nudge when you aren’t expecting it. That is exactly what happened to me and I am so happy it did.

You have one shot at the day, so why not start off on the right foot? Move over morning routines and stop cringing at the sound of your morning alarm! Is it time to start implementing a new morning routine? It was for Kimberly, and it sure was for me. I might have been just being like you right now…rolling my eyes, thinking it is just another one of those claims to fame we read every other day, but I’m not. Because I decided to change things up.

It was time to change that low energy and mood for something that can if you are not careful put you into ‘hyper-drive’! I am perfectly serious when I talk about the increase in your energy levels and mood. Wow! This is one powerful little all-natural vegan capsule that I started taking every morning.

My energy levels were always pretty good, at least considering being sleep deprived for too long…but this seriously had me in a better mood. Almost right away! But at first try it was a bit of a different story. Imagine putting something that was full of goodness into your body that it just, well to be honest, wasn’t used to getting. YEAH! Sticker shock I think.

one little green capsule


Are you a night Owl or A light sleeper? Do you have trouble getting to sleep and staying asleep?

According to the National Sleep Foundation, sleep is directly related to how we perform on a daily basis and can impact our overall quality of life. And, guess what? Your body not only needs sleep but it also loves to sleep! When our body is at rest, it’s actually working very hard. While you’re asleep, your heart rate slows, and your blood pressure drops, yielding incredible benefits to the cardiovascular system. We are giving our bodies the time it needs to regulate and repair muscle tissue, and that happens during our deepest sleep. I didn’t know this until recently.

Are you a morning person? Or do cringe at the sound of your morning alarm?

It can be hard to take full advantage of the day when you wake up feeling tired and cranky. I don’t know about you but those nights where I am in constant battle with my mind trying desperately to fall asleep, reaching for anything close by to eat…thinking that will help as the cycle continues. OR, those nights with what they call restless leg syndrome? So frustrating!

Here are a few things that I do along with taking my all natural and vegan sleep capsule to help me get into a great sleep pattern. ( no I won’t ever be without this little angel and I take it about 30 min to one hour before I plan to go to sleep ) That is what works for me…you may be different.

  • laying face up, start taking several deep breaths in and then slowly exhale. The slow, steady breaths you take mimic the slow breathing patterns you experience while you are sleeping. This can help with getting into a deeper sleep faster.
  • turn off your phone, iPad or laptop or any other distractions that keep your mind aware & thinking…When it comes to learning how to stop being a night owl this is a good rule to follow.

Just a note, since starting my routine with a natural sleep aid my restless legs are less and less frequent, and falling asleep and staying asleep is more consistent. I am not 100% there every night but what I can honestly tell you is that even tho’ I may struggle a bit to stay asleep, I am getting back to sleep much faster and deeper than I have ever experienced before.

I think we tend to forget that it takes a bit of time when you have sleep issues or anything else we are trying to change. it didn’t take one day or night to start being sleepless just as it didn’t take one day to gain some extra weight we don’t need. We have to be consistent and patient. And stay off the bloody scales! Drink a little more water and that is all she wrote. I am so happy to report that every night for me my sleep just gets better. My life, me, the person I used to be is finally getting back on track.

If you are experiencing any of the issues we talked about today, just reach out with a comment or message me and I will be more than happy to share what is helping me and may help you. ❤️

and that’s a wrap

Merry C.